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Sep. 1st, 2005 @ 03:35 am
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Time Started: 2:40 AM
full name: Amanda Marie Dixon
nickname(s): Mandy, Sunny, Dark, Breeze, Sun Shadow.
birthday: October 24, 1984
where were you born: Oregon
zodiac sign: Scorpio
height: 5'9 weight: 125
hair color: Blondish brown
eye color: Dark brown with honey colored starbursts
Shoe size: 8
ring size: 3
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.): Pale.
siblings: None
tattoos: Does scarification count?
piercings: Six in each ear, navel.
favorite color: Black.
food: Italian or Chinese.
candy: Hrm. Chocolate.
type of cheese: Motzerella
pizza: Plain cheese
salad dressing: Ranch
sandwich: Roast beef, lettuce, tomatoe, little bit of mayo, and pickles.
cereal: KIX.
fruit: Lemons.
vegetable: Broccoli
berry: Strawberry
cake: Chocolate with butter creme frosting
book: Six months to live.
movie: The Crow, Tim Burtons: A nightmare before Christmas.
magazine: None.
newspaper: None.
tv show: Nip/Tuck
website: Um. Anything to do with beagles, HIM, Stratovarius,..
radio station: Don't listen to the radio.
font: Blood of Dracula.
cartoon character: Taz.
artist (painter): Michelangelo.
actor: Brandon Lee, Bruce Lee, Johnny Depp.
actress: Don't exactly have one.
cd: Deep shadows and brilliant highlights.
song: Right here in my arms.
music group: Goth.
music type: Goth.
day of the week: Um. Saturday.
month: October
season: Fall.
holiday: Samhain.
shampoo: Pantene
conditioner: Same
number: Anything that is even.
phrase: "Do I look like I give a fuck?"
store: Whatever has the shit I want.
weather: Mid sixties during the day, cold a night.
restaurant: Olive Garden
channel: Lifetime, FX, news.
teacher: Mrs. Goodyear and Mrs. Warner
weekend activity: Sleeping, doing what ever.
hangout: Where ever.
house color: Whitish grey with blue.
sport to watch: Skateboarding.
sport to play: Skateboarding.
animal: BEAGLES.
flower: Cosmos.
guy's name: Draven
girl's name: Asteria
board game: Monopoly
party game: None.
story from childhood: None.
body part: Chest on guys.
have you ever been on a train: Nien
been on a plane: Yes.
been in a car accident: Yes.
caused a car accident: No.
run into a wall: Sadly, yes.
burned a potato chip: Gods yes. It fucking stunk.
almost burned the house down: Once.
smoked: Yes.
been drunk: Yes.
been high: Yes.
broken the law: Yes
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): Yes
kissed someone of the opposite sex: Yes.
kissed someone of the same sex: Yes.
frenched an animal: ....No....
made out: Yep.
had cyber sex: No.
gotten engaged: Yes
had an online relationship: Sorta
been rejected by a crush: Yes.
loved: Yes
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: No.
cried in public: Yes.
cried over a movie: No.
fallen asleep in a movie theater: Almost.
given someone a bath: No.
been to a boarding school: No, Catholic school was bad enough.
been home-schooled: Yes.
lost a valuable item: Yes.
bungee jumped: Yes.
skied: FUCK NO.
met the president: No.
met a celebrity: Yes.
gotten a cavity: Yes.
shopped at abercrombie & fitch: No.
made a prank call: Mmhmm.
skipped school: Yes.
faked sick to get out of school: Didn't need to. I just skipped.
purchased something that you knew didn't fit: No.
climbed a tree: Yes.
fallen from a tree: Once.
broken a bone: Numerous times.
sprained anything: Again, numerous times.
passed out: Yes.
made yourself pass out: No.
been to disney world: No.
been to a theme park (not disney): Yes.
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): Yep.
made a model volcano (working model): No.
made a clover leaf with your tounge: No.
PAST
what did you do yesterday: uhh worked :(
memory you miss the most: The people who are gone.
memory you want to forget: I would rather not get into that.
something you regretted after it was done: Too many damned things.
the last song you heard: Over there's theme song.
cd you bought: Haven't boughten one.
time you cried: Three days ago.
movie seen in a theater: Charlie and the chocolate factory
thing you ate: Cheese.
person who called: Mom.
nail polish shade worn: Blue.
time you showered: Nine pm.
person who complimented you: Fucked if I know
what are you listening to: The train going by.
what are you wearing: T-shirt and panties.
what are you thinking: Is this all it's ever going to be.
what are you scared of most: Love.
how many people are on your buddy list: 40 on AIM, ten on YAHOO.
future occupation: Who knows.
marriage site: Moore Park.
honeymoon: Hrm.
place to live: Italy.
kids: One day.
car: Ford Mustang Fastback
what are you doing tomorrow: Taking Tala to the vet.
do you think george bush will be reelected: Already was.
will there be a wwIII: I imagine there will be.
will politics ever be truthful: Hah. That statement is such a contradiction.
can the gov. be changed: Sadly, I do not think so.
best friend: Shit, I have a lot of friends who are 'best friends'
do you believe in heaven: I believe that heaven and hell are what you make it. If you believe that heaven is where good people go, you have led a good life, were kind and sympathic to others less fortunate, and that is where you will go. But if you believe you will go to hell because you've led a bad life, commited horrid acts, ect you will go to whatever you make hell.
hell: Read above.
angels: Yes.
devil: Yes.
god: Yes.
buddha: Yes.
aliens: Not the way that they are portrayed, but I do believe that somewhere, theres got to be other life, this can't just be it
ghosts: yes
soulmates: Yes.
love at first sight: 50/50
karma: Yes.
love in general: Yes
luck: Yes
yourself: Depends on the day
CRUSH
who and when was your first crush: Terry Baker, kid in the neighborhood.
any now: No.
a celebrity crush: No.
who do you want to be with right now: *Sighs* You don't want to know.
whos number do you want: No ones.
who do you want to kiss: Pfft
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: Everything
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: Name starts with an S.
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: 4
first thing noticed about the opposite sex: Eyes.
what do you look for personality-wise: Someone who is as sarcastic as me, like Gothic music/clothing/everything ;) Um, a guy who likes cars, knows his shit, can make me laugh.
biggest turn on: Nice lookin' chest.
biggest turn off: Bad hygiene, braggers, whores, ect.
the most romantic thing that has happened to you: *Gags* I am not getting into that shit.
is it right to flirt if you're taken: NO.
is cyber cheating: K...I have recently had a bad fucking problem with my husband doing that shit. I don't give a fuck if the person is in the same bed, when you're with someone, YOU SHOULD not be jacking off to anything other than your woman or fingering to nothing but your damn man.
are eyes the passegeway to the soul: Yes.
who would you like to take to the prom: Prom is long over for me kiddies.
do you want to hug somebody right now: No, I don't want to be touched.
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: Yep.
DESCRIBE
the perfect date: Just me and the guy. No interuptions.
the perfect mate: Mreh.
how m&m's are made: Watch Unwrapped on Food network.
why manhole covers are round: Because the fuckin' hole is round!
ONE OR THE OTHER
coke/pepsi: Pepsi.
sprite/7-up: 7-UP
boxers/briefs: Boxers
gold/silver: Silver
vanilla/chocolate: Chocolate
flowers/candy: Candy, I'm allergic to too many flowers.
book/magazine: A good book.
tv/radio: TV.
glass half empty/half full: Half empty
colored pencils/markers: Pencils.
coffee/tea: Coffee!
sun/moon: Moon
day/night: Night
hot/cold: Cold
dog/cat: Dog
button/zipper: Zipper
cotton/feather pillow: Feather
blue/purple: Both.
plumber/trashman: Trashman.
jeans/shorts: Jeans.
long distance relationship/none: Depends, if you care about the person enough, you can make it work
romantic comedy/thriller: Thriller.
peanut butter/jelly: Peanut butter
waffles/pancakes: Waffles
letter/email: letter because I get excited when I have mail lol
florida/california: California.
pizza/burgers: Pizza.
hat/visor: Hat
football/rugby: Football
iceskating/blading: Neither!
movie at home/in theater: Home.
FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU HEAR
yellow: submarine.
red lipstick: Ick.
socks: Feet.
cowtipping: Lmao... if only you knew.
moulin rouge: Fuckin' lame.
iceland: Greenland.
harry potter: Phoenix
red: blood
blackberry: cobbler
rose: flower
rooster: annoying!!
taxes: money
bill clinton: Moron
whipped cream: stomach ache
george w. bush: Moron
lollipops: I want one.
dreams: Fantasys
love: death.
guys: pain
south park: getting annoyed.
boy bands: DIE
pengiuns: Cute
girls: Annoying.
thong: Hell no, yeast infection waiting to happen.
death: ready
britney spears: Slut.
are you happy: No.
sad: About a lot.
religious: Spiritual.
bitchy: At times.
crazy: Oh yes.
messy: Nien.
mad: Not at the moment.
slacker: When I do not feel well..
jock: Used to be.
selfish: Can be.
giving: Can be.
obsessive: Very.
violent: At times..
calm: Not often
caring: About certain things and about certain people.
perverted: No.
artistic: Yes.
miscellanoues
what color is your jacket: Green with white ADIDAS stipes.
do you shave: Duh.
where: Legs, arm pits, trim down there.
what color is your razor: Black.
what size is your bed: Queen
what color crayon would you be: Black.
what are the last four digits of you phone number: 1343
feelings on abortion: I am for it, unless you use it as a form of birth control.
how long does it take you to shower: Around an hour.
what does your screenname mean: It is my Otherkin selfs name.
who do you trust the most: Not a lot of people.
is cussing a necessity in life: It is for me.
how about coffee: Again, it is for me.
is the world screwed: Yes, it gets worse every single day
what something you cant live without: My pups.
what time did you fall asleep: Three AM yesterday.
know what 69 means: Yes.
how about 143: Yes.
can you live without a microwave: Yes.
what do think about death: It is a part of life.
when do you want to be married: I'm already married.
what do you always think about: Life, people, ect.
what is wrong with your school: Too god damn many preps were there.
what is right with your school: Nothing, hence why I dropped out and went into home schooling.
how do you react to change: Depends, sometimes I embrace it, other times I loathe it.
do you talk to yourself: Yes.
what is your opinion on love: It can hurt you worse than anything else.
can you afford to lose weight: Yes.
what color would you dye your hair: Black, or strip the color, put blue and purple streaks in it.
what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot: Um, no I'm not.
does being psycho appeal to you: Yep.
what would you change your name to: No idea.
longest crush lasted how long: Fucking seven years.
who?: Scott Brasher. |
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How am I supposed to feel? I don't like me. Not anymore. Right now, I honestly wish I were gone. |
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This is an e-mail Cheryl sent to Kris this morning.
Hey! You have bill collectors calling you here. I have told them that you don't live here. So far so good. Do you want me to give them Amanda's phone number? I figured not! Your address? Your email. They are not going to go away, or quit calling! Figure out what you want me to do ok? Not good honey. I don't know about you, but I really hate tough times. I really miss talking to you too. We have always had good talks, and I have always been able to talk with you about anything. I miss that A LOT!! I hope that when we come down that I can have a little bit of time with just you, have Amanda go away for the night. I miss our emotional bond. Does that make sense? If things don't get better for all of us, we just may have to all move in together, and help each other out. If we weren't so far away, you guys could stay with us while you get back on your feet. I know how hard it is to struggle. Been there so many times!! Just remember that when things are tough that you have each other, and to always talk. I wish we were RICH! Dad sees Collada today he is in the worse shape I have ever seen him in. It really scares me. Ok GTG Love you so very much Kris. Big hugs MOM.
Fucking a. I get to leave tomorrow night, I have no where to go. That is just fucking wonderful. The wedding is already ruined. And I've already cut. Even better. Damnit.Current Mood:  crushed Current Music: Suicidal Dream by Silverchair |
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